lost in autumn

for the first time I'm looking for something which I should like.

time to experience the phrase saying "get down to the brass tacks".

it's unbelievable that I cannot find anything interesting!

am I crazy or really depressed?

here's the thing:

I need to find a professor whose research I like which means I'm interested to do research just like his/hers but I cannot find any area of research which I can pursue interesting!

that's my problem. my little tiny problem.

maybe it's time to change.

should I swerve into psychology direction? which I have a feeling for it.

or, it's just because of depression and when I start study and research in one of computer related fields all these dark atmosphere will be gone!

who knows?

do you think it's time to see a psychiatrist?

is it a good time to kick over all things

After spending years of study and research in computer and data science now I can say I do not like this field.

You can say I'm crazy or stupid, I don't argue with that though I do not accept it. It is impossible for me, now, to convince you other way around.

Only if I were after money or job or anything this field could offer, I would stick to it after graduation but I wasn't and am not.

All right, what should I do?

I would act unreasonably enough, if I loved or believed to achieve something, to make them say:

What shall we do with a drunken sailor early in the morning?