?any other direction

For so long I have been thinking about getting a phd and now that I have applied to some universities I weirdly do not pursue it anymore!

You may not believe that it's been quite a while that I've got answer from UMass Amherst but I haven't checked it yet!!!

Not even checking the answer to my application is what? Weird? Stupid?

Who the heck am I?!

Where am I?

What am I thinking?!

Am I thinking at all?

I don't wanna do a phd anymore, but why? why? After these many years!!!

I just know I should have a problem!

let me join

I feel blue,

oddly, I feel blue,

and nothing,

not even these fragrant minutes,

turning off on the citrus branches;

not this word's honesty,

lying in the silence between this gillyflower's two leaves;

no, nothing would disenthrall me from the invasion of environs' emptiness.

yet I am still looking forward to getting all this behind.

be sure! without your help I would fall;

I would fall from the firmament of being-

like a latent star aborted in its nascent moments.

without your help means not having your hand in mine.

economy

Higgins: do you mean to say you would sell your daughter for 50 pounds? 

Pickering: have you no morals, man?

Doolittle: no, no. I cant afford them.

Doolittle: neither could you if you were as poor as me.

My Fair Lady 1964.

Impossibility

How do we fight someone whose strength we do not understand?

The Message

you're able while I'm the who's supposed to go

I beg you for nothing the Almighty, but I expect myself to achieve everything.

Here, you brought me to.

I appreciate.

The Irony of Balance

don't open your heart to me

Music is especially dangerous to human emotions.

Good Ones.

the conversation keeps going on

Distance means what you are hearing is not what I am saying.

The Famous RGB