Eli and never and me

After you I always felt a crater on my moon.

It's never filled.
Time inexorably ticks away and all the moments take off unemotionally without looking back.
Me? Alternate between future and past just like a pendulum once I toll the future bell and then past one; Totally oblivious of the moment, of now.
There have been a lot of things in my escapade of life that I wish I could take back when I get overly mawkish; Especially some of enjoyments and accomplishments.
I'll be fine, that's preordained.
I'm undergoing an unknown metamorphosis, which will finally get me come into my own.
Then, guess what I'll do =)
To the consternation of universe, I will settle in the sedate lap of a hot-air balloon for the next adventurous journey without food or drink because I believe.

political complexion of the Globe is on the verge of a major mutation

This 80 percent enriching uranium will be seen by posterity as an incontrovertible landmark in political polarization which affects global economy and energy not only over the Middle East but the Globe.

The inevitable dark time for Pro-Americans even Europeans is coming. To dodge this they may drag the entire world into the WWIII as an act of their selfish doctrine that says "if I am going down I will take everyone with me" + "I will not let anyone to deprive me of the lion's share".

The catastrophic ramifications may will even mount to the IT-based free services and convert them into paid services.

We will wait for Russian's move and the respond by the pig-headed, haughty and snobbish Europeans. I'm pretty sure that Europeans will do their best to prod Putin and corner and press him to pull the trigger on atomic conflagration. So that they will not be the one who pulled the trigger that engenders destruction of life and envelops the world.

I see this way

Although not for me, this may seem an obnoxious way of saying that I see this system's success has been foreordained by all means of the universe.

Which means God has taken a hand.

Also, I see a range of changes are coming. Major but not revolutionary.

You can sit tight and wait or become part of it or get busy on your stuff but don't be silly enough to stand against it.

I'm for real

After all I found out that there's only one problem I got.

Just that my problem is bigger than me.

That's it √_^

شاخه نبات

اولین دقایق روزهای نو؛

دوست گلم،

به یادت هستم.

آره، میدونی.

فقط خواستم تاکید کرده باشم.

And, everyone who knows me also gets what I mean

اسمت چیه؟

واقعیت من چیزیه که از طریق حواس قابل درکه. میشه دید، شنید، لمس کرد و...

حقیقت من راهی هست که من خودمو بهش اختصاص دادم بواسطه تمام نیروهایی که از من متساعد میشن.

خدا جنبه واقعی نداره. (البته بحثی هست که همین دنیا هم وجهی از خداست اما فعلا بشر فرض میکنه که خدا جسمیت پیدا نمیکنه).

جنبه حقیقی خدا همون اسامی خداست که توصیفش میکنن. رحمان، خالق و...

واقعیت من یا جسم من در نهایت و بعد از مرگ وارد چرخه بازیافت میشه توسط طبیعت.

و جنبه حقیقی من منتهی به مجموعه ای از اسامی خواهد شد.

همه اسامی اعم از عشق، باور، ترس، شجاعت، بخشندگی و... از اول خلقت وجود داشتن و تا آخر و تا ابدیت خواهند ماند.

من میتونم مجموعه ای از این اسامی رو انتخاب کنم و خودمو بهشون اختصاص بدم.

حقیقت من بازنمود زندگی من خواهد بود در دنیای پس از مرگ.

I didn't know me

I've been fighting illness for more than two decades; who is stronger than me?

=))))

ایمان به ایمان خویش

علی محمد رو چی شناخته بود که میدونست اگه جای محمد بخوابه کشته نمیشه

میدونست که در ارتفاعی قرار میگیره که شمشیر کفار بهش نمیرسه

In the memory of Goddess

کسی نیست

بیا

زندگی را بدزدیم

آنوقت

میان دو دیدار

قسمت کنیم

Wistful and filled with remorse now consciously awakening to the fact that I didn't deserve it

اینه که من درونمو ایگنور کرده ام، همیشه.

در بعد بیرونی انسانیت، ما هیچ وقت احساس تنهایی نکردیم بلکه این درون ما بوده که همیشه تنهایی رو احساس کرده و فهمیده.

بیرون گاهی سیلی صداداری است که ما رو متوجه درون میکنه.

گاهی هم خوراکی است برای درون.

و گاهی... چیزهای دیگر.

بهتر خواهیم شد.

بهتر خواهیم بود.

این باور منه.

چند کیلومتر در ساعت بیشتر

وقتی بچه بودم یه خودرو پیکان داشتیم.

اونموقع نمیدونم چند درصد خانوارها خودرو داشتن. خیلی کم شاید 20 درصد. 

تعدادی هم ماشین خارجی بود؛ بی ام و، بنز، تویوتا، فیات، بیوک...

این خودروها سرعت وشتاب خیلی بهتری نسبت به پیکان داشتن

و توی جاده ها ما همیشه از اینها عقب میفتادیم و برای من شکست به حساب میومد؛

و... حس اقتدار و خواهش برتری جویی من از همون بچگی لکه دار شد.

side effects

Reaching the aim is like crawling through a cone in which we inevitably get narrower unless we nurture all aspects of ourself;

Otherwise a fragile, nominal existence will be all remaining of us.

can't we just throw the reason out, I wonder

I don't wanna die.

I'm not ready for that.

I'm not done in spite of not having a single tiny reason to live my life.

To grab this unknown opportunity,

And sail this melting boat of ice in this repetitious and yet unknown water,

Toward the edge of unknownness.

Shan't we stick to facts, reasons and causes?

Really?

Do you think you should live for a reason?

Or, you should have a reason to get on with your life and keep living?

Isn't it a real crap?

I remembered a wonderful aspect of zero degrees of Kelvin in which resistance maybe gone.

Beautiful, huh?

You may have no resistance, imagine, so equally you have no friction as well.

Just flow.

If there's no reason to live then there's no reason not to live as well.

Flow wherever you wish.